I remember when I used to be in the top. In grade school I was in the top three. In high school I was maybe in the top 30. In college (in my major, at least) I was number 1 . . . then 2. Then I graduated and realized that without the classroom setting and report cards, I wasn't too sure of my "thing". I had become an office intern, sitting in a cubicle, completing oftimes menial tasks. At this point there was no intranet, let alone internet, so I couldn't even google all day. . .I can now. So, for the next two years I tried to figure what degree I wanted to get next. I strongly considered one and settled on it when the second pink line appeared. Now or never! So, I completed the degree and my job gave me the "flexibilty" to complete papers, pump breast milk, go to doctor's appointments and sneak in naps as necessary. I'm living like an executive without the title or the money. Then that guy left us. For a little while we functioned okay with one income but trying to be a newly single diva is expensive. Babies are expensive. Self-medicating is expensive. So now I'm broke and a better job is imperative.
It is quite possible that I have learned how to be a thumb-twiddling googler instead of a go-getter. So, how do I unlearn? There are a wealth of opportunities out there, especially for an optimist like myself. I truly believe there are. But what's stopping me from grasping firmly? Me.
So, you change your attitude. You dig yourself out of the funk. Dust yourself off. Apply for every good looking opportunity, which happen to be coming at least once a week. Yet, nobody calls. Except the non-paying resume filler. Don't get me wrong, I thank God for opportunities to work and learn in the grass roots community environment, BUT I NEED SOME MONEY!
There is no resolution to speak of just yet. I'm still digging and searching. I'm sure I will have exciting details along the way.
